Sacred Heart of Jesus, all for Thee!
Cathedral of South Saint Louis
This is Saint Francis De Sales Oratory in Saint Louis,
In June of 2005 St. Franics de Sales was closed by the Archdiocese of St. Louis and was consolidated with another neighborhood parish. The church building, and campus was scheduled to be torn down and sold.
However, it is today ran by the Institute of Christ the King Sovereign Priest, In July 2005, the church building, and campus was given to the Institute of Christ the King Sovereign Priest to maintain and administer the sacraments according to the 1962 Missal. The Archbishop of St. Louis, His Grace, the Most Reverend Raymond L. Burke erected the church as an Oratory of the Institute of Christ the King Sovereign Priest . Today, St. Francis de Sales Oratory serves the whole archdiocese of St. Louis and is the center of the Extraordinary Form of the Roman Rite.
Stephen took me here when I visited last spring. It’s beautiful.
Ugh, I just feel so weird.
My friends keep getting married and I just found out that one couple is already pregnant, and I’m sooo happy for them and it’s wonderful, but it’s also makes me sad because I want to be the one getting married and having babies, and then I feel guilty for being sad when I should be happy, and I’m just like what am I doing with my life and why am I on this dating fast and why the heck does Stephen have to go be a priest because I really don’t want to get married to or have babies with anyone else, but I’m trying to be open to the idea but it doesn’t really seem to be working because I’m just as in love with him as ever, and I’m worried that he doesn’t love me anymore when it shouldn’t matter because we aren’t together but I want us to be together but we can’t be for multiple reasons and besides, I’m on a dating fast, so I shouldn’t be thinking like this anyways and DANGIT THIS ALL STARTED BY LOOKING AT FACEBOOK
I cannot escape it any longer.
So I’m reading this paper by Helen Fisher et al., and when I came to this paragraph I was just like… yep. That sounds familiar.
Romantic love begins as an individual starts to regard another individual as special and unique. The lover then focuses his/her attention on the beloved, aggrandizing the beloved’s worthy traits and overlooking or minimizing his/her flaws. The lover expresses increased energy, ecstasy when the love affair is going well and mood swings into despair during times of adversity. Adversity and barriers heighten romantic passion, what has been referred to as ‘frustration attraction.’ The lover suffers ‘separation anxiety’ when apart from the beloved and a host of sympathetic nervous system reactions when with the beloved, including sweating and a pounding heart. Lovers are emotionally dependent; they change their priorities and daily habits to remain in contact with and/or impress the beloved. Smitten humans also exhibit empathy for the beloved; many are willing to sacrifice, even die for this ‘special’ other. The lover expresses sexual desire for the beloved, as well as intense sexual possessiveness, mate guarding. Yet the lover’s craving for emotional union supersedes his/her craving for sexual union with the beloved. Most characteristic, the lover thinks obsessively about the beloved, ‘intrusive thinking’. Rejected lovers first experience a phase of protest, during which they try to win back the beloved and often feel abandonment rage; then they move into the second stage of rejection, associated with resignation and despair. Romantic love is also involuntary, difficult to control and generally impermanent.
I’m in love, and it’s great. :)